firsttt

I don't know exactly what the meaning of life is, but i all i know is that life is full of many obstacles you need to overcome. There's a time in life when you're the happiest, then times when your not. i believe in love, but its hard to find. love is a beautiful thing that can make you so happy, but can end up leaving you hurt. i once believed in something called forever but now it just seems like they only happen in fairytales. People always tell you you'll find someone 'better'. Most of the time you do, but it doesnt happen all the time. i'm personally sick of life. i wish i was never born most of the time because my life is just being wasted. i'm thankful to have such understanding friends and i'm thankful. but no one really understands how im feeling. i think i have everything anyone could ever ask for, but i dont know why it's not enough. i think im missing a kind of happiness my friends can't give me. i think im just taking things for granted and not really appreciating it. i think thats really selfish and i don't deserve everything i have. no one really knows how lowly i think of myself. people are probably thinking "she's just another girl looking for attention" but im not. im not sure of what i want in life. the only thing im pretty sure of is to see this one smile, hear this one laugh, and have this one guy in my life. i think i've been my happiest ever since i've met him. he colored my world wen i was living in a black and white one. i love you hun<3>