Baby your my everything<3

there's this one guy who can make me feel the happiest or the saddest. He's also the only guy that can make me feel the way i do. All i want is to have him by my side. People think i'm boring because i'd rather have one guy for the rest of my life then have as many as possible before i get out of high school. he amazes me and i hope i do the same. whenever i'm away from him i'm thinking about him non-stop. i'm crazy about him <3 we've been through a lot, the best times and the worst, but we're still together. so that must mean something. i love you with all my heart<3 [short]

it's cloudy out.

either life's being unfair to me or i'm just a big screw up. whenever everythings fine i end up fucking everthing up again. i don't understand why i'm the one that has all the bad luck. everyone has bad luck every once in a while but i seem to have it everyday. i hate the shit life is giving me. i'm sick and tired of dealing with everything getting thrown at me. i guess it's just because i'm weak. i went from having a caring family to them starting to stop caring for me. i basically gave up everything just to be with this one guy. i wish someone would understand me. everyone always compare me to other girls and say i'm not like then or they expect me to be like them, but i'm completely different. people should get to know me before they judge me.

firsttt

I don't know exactly what the meaning of life is, but i all i know is that life is full of many obstacles you need to overcome. There's a time in life when you're the happiest, then times when your not. i believe in love, but its hard to find. love is a beautiful thing that can make you so happy, but can end up leaving you hurt. i once believed in something called forever but now it just seems like they only happen in fairytales. People always tell you you'll find someone 'better'. Most of the time you do, but it doesnt happen all the time. i'm personally sick of life. i wish i was never born most of the time because my life is just being wasted. i'm thankful to have such understanding friends and i'm thankful. but no one really understands how im feeling. i think i have everything anyone could ever ask for, but i dont know why it's not enough. i think im missing a kind of happiness my friends can't give me. i think im just taking things for granted and not really appreciating it. i think thats really selfish and i don't deserve everything i have. no one really knows how lowly i think of myself. people are probably thinking "she's just another girl looking for attention" but im not. im not sure of what i want in life. the only thing im pretty sure of is to see this one smile, hear this one laugh, and have this one guy in my life. i think i've been my happiest ever since i've met him. he colored my world wen i was living in a black and white one. i love you hun<3>